Six years ago today my life changed forever. My husband and I had been fighting a rare disease called Amyloidosis that had been attacking his body for the past 3 months. We were on a journey to healing, just not the kind of healing we were hoping for. On June 27th, 2012 at 8:51 pm he took his last breath here on earth and immediately joined his Heavenly Father where he instantly was pain free. For me that was the beginning of the most painful time in my life. I still miss him so much, every day. But God has been faithful to see me through and continues to take care of me every day. I know what it feels like to want to take your last breath. I know when the pain seems like it will never end. I know the anger when life isn’t fair. I know how it feels to never want to wake up yet too scared to fall asleep. I say all this for you to believe me when I say, it will get better. Maybe not the same, but the pain will subside.
Today as I look back on that dreadful day I can still feel the shock rage through my bones. I can still feel the sting that ripped my heart in two. I can recall every second of a night I wish I could forever forget. But through it all, God has been faithful. When I was at my lowest, He joined me where I was. He was patient as I mourned and grieved. He could see the bigger picture when I could only see a life I no longer wanted. But He also knew I would not give up. He knew I would find my way through it and He knew of the plans He had for me going forward. All I had to do was rest in Him and trust Him to be faithful until the end. And 6 years later I can say He has never let me down.
In honor of a man who loved me so deeply, was a great best friend for over 30 years and a great father I have taken our journey through the hardest days of our lives and put them into a book called, A Journey of Love Between Two Best Friends. This may have started as a story of his illness but it ended up being much more than that. It is a story about 2 people who loved each other so much and their journey through life’s toughest times. It shows a man with tremendous strength and faith in his Creator and a community that surrounded him with love and strength when he needed it the most.
If you would like to purchase a copy please email me and I can order one for you. I would love to share it with you. It is a story that will change your life, I know it has mine.
In the midst of pain, when you don’t think you can make another day, I hope you can remember my story and reach out to our Heavenly Father who knows far more than we can see and has promised to make all things beautiful again.
“Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert.” Is. 43:19